Veronica - Healed
“My life felt like my own personal hell. Each moment of my life was consumed with anxiety, depression, self-hatred, and perfectionism. It was a constant for me. I had lived with it since I was a child, so I thought, “This is who I am and this is who I’ll always be.” About half way through college I hit rock bottom. I lived in constant fear. I had no peace. I was so angry at God because I was alive. In my desperation, I wanted nothing more than to die, so I took matters into my own hands. I attempted suicide.
I was in a psychiatric hospital for a while, and as my family came in and out to see me, so did my small group. I had never experienced love like that. Seeing them at my door is one of the most vivid and precious memories I have. It was then that I started to see what Jesus was like. It started a journey of God showing me that He had great purpose for His Kingdom that involved keeping me alive.
I went to a prayer night a few months later, and for the first time in my life, the Lord spoke to me: “You have told yourself that this is the life I created you to live and who I created you to be. You have made these disorders your identity. Let them go.” In that moment, I surrendered it all. I was filled with the Holy Spirit and a peace and joy I had never felt swept over me! From that day forward, I was never the same. It’s been over 2 years and I have not experienced even a moment of what my life once was. I have been set completely free.
As I began learning the voice of the Lord, He began to show me that my identity could only be found in Him. He showed me a verse from John “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let your heart not be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” This is the peace I’ve been given and the hope I have received! And here lies the beauty of it all: These are not just words on a page. These are promises we can live out. Jesus healed me and gave me new life and He can do the same for you.” - Veronica